Monday, December 27, 2004
semlm had bloody fun at the wild wild wet....damn it..i not goin to take the SIDE UP ever again!!!!....tats is the place i feel lky i gonna die....at first i see ppl take it..wow...bestnyee...
tan i q up lah...with busu.....when it my turn...i had second though to back out...but i still clim up the stair....after tat it our turn....damn it when i sit...i sae eh jap2...jgn tolak...tk jadi...ar seram ar....tan the life guard sae...bismillah..tk der aper2....i noe my face are fucking pale....busu told me sooo...my heart are beating soooo fucking fast....damn it can i get out...no!no!...dont push me...to late...i was flying off...my hand dah mcm nk terlepas....seh..my body are lky goin off the boyah.....i shout sooo the loud....i noe...it veri loud...but it soo fuckin scary!!!...oooo..i noe i'm do afraid of heigths......but tiz is much scary tan anything thing i take ride in any of the them park....oh my god...after dah habis....i wanted to stand but i cant...but when i stand damn i feel sooooo the pening....i fall down....awwww...the lifeguard soo cutez!!!....help me up...hiyoh...i reali2 not ever goin to take tat again....but the waterworks...soo the borin....the slide soo the slow..no fun!!!...dont lky..but the best of all is the ular la...damn it...tats is the most fun of all....weeeee...the lifeguard kat side up..was there..and told me dont shout tat loud again..ekekek....he laugh..i sae eh maner leh....ride tan keep quiet no fun lah...but juz now tu kat side up..tu seram lah..mesti jerit......he laugh..and push me off...and there we goo....and i shout again....i bought the pic kat ular la....$12.90.....yepz...take tat ride many times...and i bought the nice pic wkakakakak....semua asik amik pic..muka ako yg paling clear...wakakkaka.....but there one time i soo bad.....nearly make busu and nurul drown....at the wave pool....the both sit at one boyah...and i'm the one who push them....and i when to the deepest...near 1.6m....and after tat i push them off....with out tellin them....damn it i though busu noe how to swim...i donnoe who to save nurul or busu....wokie.z.i take nurul first...tan i wnet to busu..the lifeguard nearly goin to jumpa off...but i told him no need.....pull busu to the other side....let her breath...damn it her face sooo the merah.....her face of panic....i also panic.....how i noe she dont noe how to swim!?!??!.....she never tell me seh.....haiyoh if nurul i noe lah..she dont noe......hoiyoh2.....after she go....i and nurul..she hug me and ask me to bring her to 1.6m...soo i bring her lah....she hug me.....i hate her for sengajah touch my boobs!!!...until the lifeguard saw...and make a shock face...damn it lah her....bdh tol..make me paiseh jeh...make me lose my water face lah u!!...wakkaka...but reali lifeguard semua handsome!!!.....nice to view at waakkakak.....but all is veri friendly..i lky....ekekke..all leh buat ckp2..ader satu tu hiyoh..mulut soo the jahat....sae the ride soo bloody scary..and leh jatoh..wkakakkaka....feel lky gonna box his face!!....wakkakaka....damn it noe...i soo fucking black....eh not black..tan...ekekke..but my hand..i dont lky..tooo tan!!!...hiyoh...but had real fun there....
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7:33 PM
Sunday, December 26, 2004
i juz got home from paris ris park....when pinic with my family and sedara all....kite2 jeh..had bloody fun there.....kite dtg around 12 plus....tan i go sit near the beach..take freash air....and see ppl canno...and i sit alone...relaxin..damn it soo nice siting alone..lisntnin to the water splasing on to the sand.....hear the iwnd..blowng....after sitting there for an hr...i go back to the pit....go eat...ememe..yummmy...soo many food...but i smell something smelly!!!...how could there go out and bought durian!!!...soo smelly....hiayoh....smelly lah...after tat we go cycling.....had reali reali great fun there....busu sooo funny...wokeiz..i noe the bicycle is tinggi..even me had troble...she cycle...at first straigth langga the pokok...wkakakaka......had good laugh at here...tan she go cycle again....nearly jatoh..but manage to mantain....after tat masok bushes!!!..w.akakkaka....tats time i laugh lky a mad person....haiyih...should use the hp take her vidoe jatoh kat bushes!!!...after tat everyone rent the bicycle...and we cycle togther...most of them take the two sit..me use pak long bicycle...soo bloody the tall....all had fun....cycle all soo the far2....haiyoh..veri tired..had good laugh.....and reali...my butt is hurt after sitting on tat bloody bicycle...and i had accident using tat bicycle....damn wanted to scold tat kid..for ridin sooo fast..but kecian he also fall down...damn it pain seh....my butt....but had lots lots of fun...
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1:21 PM
Friday, December 24, 2004
eeee....melehbihnye ako....step cutez...tk lawa seh...ader dimple!!!
oh my godd!!!
aper posing tu???
not nice ar...
mulut tutup nanti lalat masok!!!
damn it i fuckin bored......merry christmas to everyone.....damn everyone out....my bro go work..my sis and mum go out...my dad is in china...i miss him sooo badly....everydae we call him...ask how he was....he fine....i hope....i noe he wont tell us if he were sick...he told me tat before he left...awww..make me more worry....daddy hope u be fine....love you soo much..and i miss you sooo badly.....i miss ur nagging too....ekekkeke..nah..juz now take picz of myself...using my sis digicam..damn if she noes...i be dead meat....neway i look fat!!!....damn should go on diet soon...argghh...i always sae soon..but never do eat..and keep on eating...damn...the food..hungry you noe not trying to eat it....makin my air liur melilih...wkakkak....
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2:15 AM
Thursday, December 23, 2004
i juz got home from my grandma hse...sleep there since tuesdae....damn sooo the not nice ar...aircorn sooo fuckin cold.....hate it....make me got flu...go there help my grandma since she haven recover yet...soo..help with the little kiddos....yepz...ememmememe....juz now suppose to go out with zul....he wanted to meet me since last two week...sooo.i sae todae can lah....tan i koll him up weather jadi ke tk...he never pick up...tan his bloody promblem ar....no of my pasal....wakkakaka....maybe he ask again..i wont be free...wakkakakak..i'm a busy women u noe...wkakaka..banyak kau nye busy......haizzz....damn it..i hav bougth skoolz shoes...books...nah...books for wat.....onli ex book.....and my uniform...haiyoh....hav buy yet...sooo the lecih...damn..i reali dont feel lky goin skoolz anymore.....juz feeel fuckin weird next yr....oooo..u guys noe....wat happen to me mah...haizzzz....damn it lah...juz which i would continue skoolz....
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1:20 AM
Sunday, December 19, 2004
haizzz.....my brain can explode...doin all tiz blog....changin it for soo many times....and trying to make new table..but i juz dont get it!!!..*wonder*...how the fuck should it been done....arrgghhh....*stress*...damn it la....enough bout tiz blog stuff....neway...yesterdae my grandparent juz when home....yeah...feelin kinda off lonely here...kinda off quiet here....not sooo much nagging....yeah.....emememem....neway i dont noe wats goin on with me tiz pass few daes....been gettin pissed by everyone...when the sae something i dont i would go..argghhh...lky a mad dog...scolding ppl here and there...yeah i did...yeah on fridae..dont reali no wat got in to me....i push my sis...and got her leg blue black...but who ask her to kick my stomach....and i shouted at my mum...and my aunty to tell her to get lost....and even my grandma....ask her to shut her mouth up...did i reali shout at my grandma??...man i was fuckin pissed y my sis tat dae....man...i should hav control my temper....wat i donnoe y i get tat angry with everyone...shouted at everyone...being damn RUDE at everyone....wat go to me lately....even yesterdae i get pissed damn easily......no i guess now adaes i get fuckin pissed by everyone...who sae somethimg i juz dont lky and i get mad...lky a MAD DOG....wakkakaka....soo the giler...damn had to try to control my fuckin temper...
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9:53 PM
Friday, December 17, 2004
awwww....i been torture for nearly a week now.....yeah yeah....my grandparent are sleepin here for a week....they goin home on sundae....damn sometimes i do love them being here....atleats they someone to talk to rather tan my mum....but i had to eat vegetable....damn i reali hate veges.....they reali suck....juz tease damn awful....YUCKZ!!!YUCKZ!!!...i onli eat one vege tat is onli sayur sawi...tats it not others...wakakkak....oh yeah i'm getting pissed by tiz little kid here...tats is my small couzin....goin to pri1 next yr....damn he soo fuckin the naughty....hate him...*for now*....he disturp me when i using the computer....he disturb me when i sleepin....awwwwww....he sleep beside me and he keeps kickin me....awww...feels lky kill him....but i cant....he too adorable....he soo teh cutez....especially his BUTT!!!....soo the cutez...loves squeezin them....*winkx*..he goin home todae....yepz...hav my peace for sleepin....damn i hav when out with my frendz bout a week now....feel bored at home....stuck here...juz being a good grandaugther staying home....not showin my devilness....*grins*.....
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4:30 PM
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
me aNd shA2
me and my family
everyone at the airport
my parentz....
man....todae looks lky a bloody sad dae....i sleep yesterdae at 2am..and had to wake up at 4.30...take a quick shower....damn the water is cold....damn the water heated is spoilt....tan take taxi go to the airport...*go airport to sent my dad..he kene outstation*..me my sis and my bro onli....my parent take car with abg cik and pak tok...we reach first...had our breakfast at mac donnal....i share with my sis...but took my bro hashbrown....yepz..tan after had breakfast...meet everyone at the terminal2...yeshhh.....we took lost lots of picture as a family...veri teh many...but haven download yet...later i show u all...*winkx*....had the last hug and kisses from my dad....i feel lky cying when he when to teh gate....but i juz controll my tears not to roll down my cheek....man i gonna miss tat old man of mine....although sometime i wish he will juz shut his mouth not to nag at me....but he did it juz to remind me wat...yeah..gonna miss his nag and hug and kisses....hope he be back in one or three month....don sae u be back in six month...we will miss u dearly...oh yeah when u come back....plz..plz...plz...plz...bought me a present....i reali reali reali..one something from china.....*winkx*..nice nice one eyah dad...ekekeke....lol...*wonder wat u were doin now down there....i noe u reach there few hrs ago...yepz...i wish u call us soon....reali wanna hear ur voice....*winkx*....w0keiz i guess i wanna take some nap..veri the tired...2 hrs of sleep only...
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4:45 AM
Broken
Doll
by aZimAh
I am a broken
doll,
Average I am no
more,
On the out side I am
perfection,
But
my heart is bruised and sore.
They call me
broken doll,
Because of my
broken heart,
My heart
broke long
ago,
And now it’s in
two parts.
The only visible sign of
hurt,
Is the sadness in
my eyes,
No one
knows how I feel,
My
smile is my disguise.
I am
a porcelain doll,
With a
very broken heart,
My
thoughts were weapons that
broke it,
Now
it’s in two parts.
So
sweet looking on the
outside,
But inside angry
and sore,
Why must I
watch such
tragedy,
Everyday hour by
hour.
Placed here on this
window sill,
Looking
down on the city below,
I see
all the madness and
misfortune,
The city has
for show.
Old
ladies being muggers and
battered,
Children
being shot,
Men
sleeping in cardboard
boxes,
In
empty parking
lots.
Inside my tears are
falling,
Continuously
non-stop,
My broken
heart gets heavier,
With
every single drop.
Inside my
broken
heart,
Is swimming in my
tears,
For its thinking
of the tragedy,
I’ve
witnessed through the
years.
I
am a broken
doll,
Who’ll be broken ever
more,
On
the outside I am
perfection,
But my heart is
bruised and sore.
aZimAh