Monday, February 28, 2005
damn i reali hate the dae 28 of feb tiz yr...juz my bad luck i guess....i miss my dad alot....didnt talk to him for few daes already as i keep comin home late....*sign*...neway wat happen todae was first of all the bad luck begins when i was walkin to mrt in the morning....nearly hit by tat stupid car dunno how to drive...cant u see it a red ligth!!!...[i mean me the red man]..hahahah...stupid rite tan some more dunno how to horn...how to hear u bitch u was listning to the fuckin disman damn loud....bitch...secondly stupid basterd sotong scolded me in front fo the whole skoolz in the canteen juz now..and make me look lky a fuckin dog...he did..!!...i was eating haven finish my food u noe...he sae hey u go back to ur place....huh u think wat mr yeo has already promoted u to sec4 is itz....fuckin i noe lah i retain dont look down on me basterd sotong...i haven finish and he halau me go eat at my class table...*sign*..i dont even noe where is 3a2 table....*nod head*....i pass my nuggers all to diyana...and put my plates....fucker him...i hate tat sotong....tan after recess...i was fuckin pissed my richard...he make me pissed till my tears were rolling down my cheeck...gosh...he was soooo BLOODY DISGUSTING AND IRRITATING BITCH....i wish i could kill u rite now....i reali hate u..after i cry he didnt even sae a word to me..as if i gonna talk to bitch...but the surpised is tat i wonder how husayn noe it my bdae todae....*think hard*...arrr stupid him la...gosh....i think i gonna be sick....my throat are pain after shouting all the way in skoolz at richard....i got flu..i got cough.....fever tats it...haizzz...wat a worst dae of the yr...hate it soo much.....i still waiting for the postman...wonder wat my dad bought me...
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4:06 PM
Sunday, February 27, 2005
hahhaa....had a veri nice dinner....eat at swensen....got suprised from them....i love the bdae cake....can i not eat it??...hahahha...but i already did...neway thkx for all the present and food for me...i love it all...expect for one present....fucker lah...give me g***** for wat....y..u wanna see i wear it is it???....hahahaha...i will in ur next life...fucker siak...but had lot lot lot lots of fun semlm.....althoug meet them quite late...
neway semlm when out with naza..sha..and nazi....wei..how come i always the one who kene waited for u all....fuckin long u noe...not fair...not fair..not fair...dont lky u all lah...hahhaha..dont lky but lup u all...crazy....neway when shopping.....i bough two shirt....damn it lah around 8 lky tat i had to rush back home..my mum called....stupid she....hahhaha...but i also hate goin home at nite...hahaha..u guy should noe y....u dont noe..hahaha..find out ur self lah....
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11:28 PM
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
listning: onli u by Ashanti
feelin:down
when to skoolz quite early todae.....damn i hate the sight of wld sec ppl.....they go yishun intercahnge to take bus go for cross country....satu muka ako nk TUMBOK...stare2 org...fikir per lawa sangat per....tk suka ckp ar....ako cocok mate kau baru tau...
in skoolz nuthin much happen...expect for english lesson..i dont noe wat happenin to me as i go scolded mr tan....i dont noe why i hated him tat much....since the dae he start teachin me few yrs back....tan he ask me why i hated him so much...i sae my promblem ar non of ur bisness...the touch my bag..i ask him to let go of it...he ask me to sit down tan he would let go...i shout let go lah...tan i jeling him...look outside the window..he told me tiz is ur last chance...im gonna help u tiz yr....u wont given any chance any more.....i sae wateva la...inside my heart sae ****er siak...fikir aper ako bru retain satu kali apersal dgn kau nk look down on ako....bapak kau nye puki lah....tan he sae im kind enough not to let u go site iutside class...i shout at him and sae...i happy to invite myself outside....walk to the door...tan he ask come back and sit down...so i did lah...tan he sae doesnt mean i let u win u will climb over my head....when i was figthin with mr tan..everyone in the class was sooo damn quiet.....haiyoh...y scared...i scolded soo many teachers last few yrs..until my parent had to come down....i dont care anymore...i feel ****in bored in tiz skoolz....i feel lky quitin....but i cant..i noe education is improtant....at least before i stop skoolin..i must hav my o lever cert....arr damn it lah....
neway after skoolz had social studies...i didnt study for the test...*mumbling*..oh my god...i forget tat todae hav test....i reali do....how how how....got 15 min to study..but i juz seems tat i cant concentrate....it soo noise....yeah wat everyone goin home...tan when up at 1345 to the ava room...sit according to register no...got the papper...*sign*...i was soo releif tat the paper was easy....as i remember all the stuff about sri lanka and northern ireland education system...soo i think i would pass...i write non stop...but i notice tat beside me was hui ping..she was lookin at my papper!!!...how dare she copy mine!!!....i quickly cover it...hahahha...look at me...i was pissed when i saw her lookin over at my paper....kereknye ako...i was the first to finish...call up mrs chen weatehr can go home or not..she sae no....haiyoh i had to wait for 15 min seh...soo bloody long...stare at everyone..keep lookin around..damn im bored...after skolz when home with is and murali..tan farham,bull and ahot ask me to walk with them..*wondering*...why suddenly they ask me to join them..so i did lah...after half way we spilt up as they tired wanna take bus..me is and ali continue walkin...tan i split with them took 859....thought of takin mrt but hot later kene walk....took 859 with syahid and afiq..talk with syahid all the way..hahah...quite nice...he told me about i was chatting with his brother...hahahah...i laugh seh..i though who seklai his bro....wat onlie..tan reach home....nobody was around....
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10:36 PM
Monday, February 21, 2005
u saw me the other dae...and u smile at me....few daes back u call me out of the blues...i was wondering why the hell u are callin me...for yrs u dont give me a call...not one single call from u to ask how was i doin...i been through hell..it been all down for me...u promised me no matter wat happen u will always be by myside...but where were u....u werent there for me....i been it throung all alone...all by myself.....u left me in the dark....all by myself...u broke ur promise....u left me alone in a world of uncertain...i dont noe wat to do without u....but i when through it although it was hurt and painful...but tats life rite...i had to accept it..all of us would be through it....but i juz dont get it...why now u call me back and ask how things were....u werent there for me all tiz while...u left me in the dark...wats make u change ur mind to now how i was???u told me i change alot....beem soo rude...hello!!!...i hav the rite to be angry at u....hey i hav a feeling too u noe...im a human too...i hav the rite to be mad...well...i noe wat it forgive nad forget...but i juz cant seems to forgive and froget wat u done to me...i trusted u wit all my heart....but all i get from u was lies!!!sssorie i juz cant accept u back in my life again....i had enuf of ur lies...i had enuf for waitin for u.....i noe u would be readin tiz...well all i hav to sae...leave me alone and dont ever come back to my life again...wat is past is past...i juz dont want to remember any of it...
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7:39 PM
Sunday, February 20, 2005
me and my spec..nice???
yuck soo fuckin ugly
i took some picz from my mum hp...dunno how to sent tan ask...khai help me...sent my pic to his hp..tan he sent to my mail....soo nice of him..muackzz...thkx you...
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11:06 PM
Saturday, February 19, 2005
damn i woke up early todae....about 8plus...watch tv for awhile tan turn on the comp...yesterdae go help my aunty go work..door to door...let see..how much i get yesterdae....emem..earn about 114buck..damn i rich for one dae...onli go 6hses....wakkakak...stupid siak...some ppl no home...
neway after go survey ppl...go cut my hair...damn it i reali hate my hair sial..see lah..soo ugly...should hav noe not to cut it...stupid me...somemore the person neber cut properly...i ask short...she give long...stupid rite....haiyoh...some more she cut wrong...i ask for different hair style..she cut lky tiz...stupid..stupid...stupid...
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6:03 PM
Friday, February 18, 2005
juz reach home about 6plus...lisning to tiz dae & age....on the 16 i didnt not go skoolz...as i go sent my dad to the airport....damn i dunno why i was crying...guess i will miss him tat much..since tiz time he be back onli another 8 month more....tats is reali a long time...yeah it is...after sent him to the airport...follow my grandma go taamp mall...she wanted to buy shoes....after tat i go town..go taka....damn fund one shirt nice...but didnt buy as i hav no money....tan when home....
todae in skoolz miss lim didnt come...2free period....thouh todae got physic test...tan she neber come...watse my time onli go study....after tat got chem retest...as onli 1 person pass....*shake head*...i do reali hate science....as i neber pass it my secondary life....after tat got social studies....guite boring...teacher teach fast..tan got 15 min...i go sleep...seriously i was fuckin tired and veri he sleepy....after recess was math....hurry!!...mrs ambika not here to teach..she teach damn slow...i hate it...got quiz....yeppy...veri easy lah....after tat english got test....haiyoh why todae soo many TEST....i hate it...soo the hiyoh...after skoolz i go home with su take mrt toward bishan...as i was goin down there....i was in a hurry...as i though i was late....didnt want him to wait....oh meetin rino up...*shake head*...im soo confused bout him wather to trust watever he sae...coz he basterd me once....why the hell did i forgive him...hiyoh onli forgive wat..not as if i was together with him...reach bishan...call him up..i waited for him for 2ominutes...hiyoh...very the long siak....stupid he noe i hate waitin.....stupid him...go sit under blk for a while..talk2 tan go shop buy water...damn why todae soo the hot.....tan around 5plus lky tat when home..he sent me to the mrt....tan bye2 ...wakkaka..stupid him...one thing he wear wrong slipper...*laugh out loud*...he wear his sister one....wakkakaka.....hiyoh stupid ar u....
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2:17 AM
Monday, February 14, 2005
it valentine dae todae....not such a big deal....eh it is a big deal...as im goin out with my family eat at swensens....coz my dad gonna fly off again on the 16 or 17..till hari raya tan we meet again...
i will miss him veri much...
skoolz was as usual...first period ...i sleep...tats was the onli time i could sleep...yepz second period was social studies....everyone was lisntnin to the teachers teachin...and doin all the work given....as next week got common test....tan it was pe...i didnt go for it as i wrote letter saein i have leg cramp..such a lier!!...veri lazy lah to run 2.4km...i forge my mum signature...sit one corner alone..while everyone was running....msg faizal but he didnt reply....tan msg sufaat...as i was bored....didnt talk to him fo such a long time.....the last time i talk was december..when we go watch movie...he still remeber tat i suppose to treat him!!...how could he...haiyoh...well had to keep my promise....i will....next month i hav money...wakakkaka..sorie for the delet my dear...richard msg saein tat he woke up late...tats y didnt go..stypid siak him..always neber come one....after irish finish runnin....i play basketball with her..mr tan saw..he scolded me and sae ur letter was a BULLSHIT....i sae alah dont u noe me..u noe me since last yr...off coz it was a bullshit....i laugh...after tat i walk away and sit with the sec4 express ppl...takin and gossip...girls will be girls...math period was soo fuckin boring...ambika teeach us sooo fuckin slow....me and murali make noise....makin fool off ourselves..makin funni face...make irritating sound..but it was fun...but the best thing is neber kene scold...*grins*....mly period...cikgu siti neber come...soo borin..sit with mas and suzie all...talk2...second period off it i was readin my book...gosh it soo nice....i mean the story soo nice lah...
after skoolz went back with ali...why everone keep askin eh u guyz together eh??..damn it cant a frendz walk with a frendz without sae they are together...irritating question lah everyone!!!we r juz close frendz onli..get tat in ur head everyone...yelah when the sec4 stay back..who else i wanna go home with...either him or richard..but tat guy always neber go skoolz...neway took 804...fadly was there...[3tech]....damn it he was soo fuckin disgusting.....dont noe how to discribe it....but it reali disgusting....yuckz!!!
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4:50 AM
Saturday, February 12, 2005
juz finish cleanin up the hse as my relative comin over here.....wow..so tired seh....nobody help with me with the hsework...do it all by myself..my parent went market..my sis go skoolz...my bro sleepin lky a PIG.....damn tired seh....
yesterdae though of goin out with zul...he wanted to accomapany me go cut hair after tat go tamp....buy his slipper....but got no money....sooo foget bout it...tan my parent ask me wether i wantder to follow go nenek hse...i sae wokiez..since im bored to death....coz i noe there would be a lot of chocolates...sekali go there kene lecture....my aunty found out tat todae i skip skoolz...she nag nag nag bout n level...dont go ite...take o...haiyoh..i felt lky sshout at her face tat i retain!!!....but i dont dare coz im soo embarass if i told her....neway i ate a box of FERRERO ROCHER....awwww..the taese of it...soo deliciouse....lucky my bro and sis not there if not....i onli get a few..and cant even enjoy it in peace....
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2:46 AM
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
hurhur.....slacking at home doin nuthin at all....damn it im soo fuckin bored sittin here at home at hearin all the arguin from both my parentz....gosh it been ever since my dad comes home...oh plz lah mum he juz home for one 2 weekz...on the 16 he goin back to china...give him a space lah....no not him ME...damn it...i can become deaf lky tiz everydae if you keep shouting.....shut your bloody mouth bitch!!!can i get my peace!?!?!?!?....
im already fuckin pissed with tat smelly ass in tiz fuckin hse....blockin all my stupid website....everything i tell you..including friendster all....fucker i reali doest hate you rite now...better dont asked me to help you with anything or im gonna kill ur bloddy fuckin ass....hate u soo much!!!
gosh i reali hate stayin home for now...got comp for wat cant even go any website....stupid rite...damn it...i noe i will be goin out tomorrow.....meeting farah tomorrow....yeah miss tat bitch soo much.....damn it soo long neber meet her....damn it should ask her to treat me..*grins*....yepz i should....later go tell her....i will make sure i finish every cents in her wallet...wakakka..basterd siak ako....soo the bad...well im wat....
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10:18 PM
Sunday, February 06, 2005
awwww....i eat soo much yesterdae...damn it i reali reali reali gettin damn FAT!!....eat luch at home...lemak chili padi...[soo hot]...tan after tat go airpot while waitin for my dad...eat swiss mushroom meal....wow...i was sooo damn excited to see my dad....of coz lah....2 MONTH i never see him...no naggin...expect on the phone....miss him soo much....wow....when first i saw him....i hug him...awww..miss him...i wanna go china too..look at my dad...he become more fairer and his cheeks ar red....i want RED CHEEKS!!...i reali does...i love it...veri much..*grins*
in skoolz todae sooo boring...first period ennglish....mcm biasa membebel..never do work....after tat social studies...tiz is the third time my rubber band kene confiscated....haiyoh...y always me??...yeah2 i noe...i always where pink or purple rubber band to skoolz....yepz..yepz..fine2...take it...i can buy some more...onli 4 for 2buck at minitoons...i dont mind....
after tat got pe..hioyoh kene run 6 rounds!!!....bloody tired...seh...got headache after runnning...tan after recess..math period..dunno why suddenly i feel lky vomitting...at first i though nuthing lah...tan suddenly the thing gonna come out quickly lah run to the toilet....hiyoh...vomit soo many......all my food i eat all go down the drain...see lah now i hungry again!!....tan after tan mly period....soo fucking boring siak juz now..no iskandar...kene suspen...hiyoh..no him soo boring seh....tan go home with richard and murali.....at one block saw nas,suhaidi and mil...walk together kat 7eleven....miss nas and mil soo much...seh...haiyoh talk2...joke2..merepek seh suhaidi....but they are still fun la...see lah i dont want to buy anything....make me buy snaple and chocolate...damn it stop makin me fat lah u all....wakkaka..not ur fault..i wanted to buy...*grins*....tan take bus...nas,mil and di go back skoolz....they got class....damn wish iwas in sec4 now....*sign*
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11:15 PM
Saturday, February 05, 2005
hmmmm....listening to rich girl...damn it lky tat song sooo much seh...damn it i sooo fuckin bored at home doin nuthin....
my ex koll me the other dae...tan juz now i koll him....he sounded sooo happi to heard my voice...damn it sort of miss the times we had together....but talk onli for a while coz he nk mandi...eeeeee...bau bucuk!!!...wakakkaka...damn it he still haven treat my movie seh...must later go ask him where my treat is....wakakakka...wonder who is he with now...*such an unlucky girl who stead with him*....*grins*..basterd siak....
neway i cant wait for tomorrow.....my dad comin home!!!!...*jumpin up and down*....wow sooo long never see him...miss him soo much....*wonder*..did he bring me any present???...early bdae present maybe??...wow...plz buy me present..i love u sooo much...bring me the mini ipod or...digicam of my own...or my neoprint machine..soo no need to go any noeprint shop go take picz...*tats the crazyiez present i ever ask*...oru give me 100 buck lky u use to give me every yr...damn it but tat is onli hari raya time..but can wat....i ur lovely cutiez daughter....promised u i work hard tiz yr in skoolz...soo buy me tat stuff wokeiz...wakakkaka...*damn it i need to beg him*....neway reali2 cant wait to meet him tomorrow...
but the sad thing is he will onli be back for a week or two lky tat....wont celebrate my bdae with him...tat the most sad part...*sob..sob..sob*
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10:16 PM
Friday, February 04, 2005
damn it i wish i was in tat class when rahim and arun figth...i wanna go sec4!!!..i miss all my friendz there....the had a figth...serve rahim rigth tat he get beaten up by arun...damn it arun was good....i love it...he soo show off as he was damn big lky tat...sooo wat he go in boys home...coz he mother sent him there...$30 per month....wakkakaka...even his mum hate him tat much to sent him up tat....bloody idoit guy...dont u dare lay ur hand on is...see ar..who will figth who...comfirm u lose lah...everyone hates you my boy...even ur bestfrendz now hate u tat much...such a bloody loser....nobody lky u..everyone hate u....as if we are scared of u..soo wat kau masok home...doesnt mean u are tat big...so wat u juz join gang...as if we are scared of you..damn it i love the new face of you...one black eye...one bleeding nose.....nice face i must agreee.....wakkakakakakak...serve u rite...
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10:06 PM
Thursday, February 03, 2005
fucker...fucker..fucker...stupid asshole...y u go block all the site i always go in!!!...i gonna kill ur hamster if u continue to do tat....stupid brother....i always help u...tan tiz is when the fuck i get...damn it..i hate u soo much...pay me all my money u borrow from me...gime all my stuff back....i want to kill ur stupid hamster...so wat it from ur girlfriend....i dont give a damn bout it....bloody asshole...i hate u soooo much...reali doest...arrggggg.....
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1:40 AM
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
i was late for skoolz....i did wake up on time but i was havin stomach ache tiz morning.Had to do my business first...haiyoh soo pain seh....i though i was not goin to skoolz...but got chemistry test....later if never come must take mc..veri the lecih.....i noe i'm already late...so me walk2 more slow...some more my bag fucking heavy....so many books inside...my d&t folder make it more heavy....reach skoolz..the halll soo the quiet...everyone reading...i walk to the back of the hall....and sit down....wow..soo many ppl also late...nasib baek tiz is my first time late..if more tan three time kene sent home seh....lesson get a ussall...expect mly period....cikgu siti no come...tan my disman kene confiscated....bingit siak....i was lisnetning...suzie dgn noridah yg dgr..tan mine kene confiscate..my heart was beating soo fast..and feel lky it gonna stop any times sooo..my face turn pale....damn it seram seh....tat the most expense disman i ever had....$300 plus nye...comfirm kene maki dgn my sis...tat hers...not mine..mine dah pecah....i keep begging the teacher to give me back..kasi semua alasan....tan she told me take after skoolz....two period skoolz gonna finish..sit in class soo restlessly....bell ring quickly i go find her...she tod wait outside staff room...tan she come about 15 min later....she nag nag nag at me....tan she told me u can take ur disman back in 30 minutes time....sit with murali and richard at the canteen...had our luch all...tan at 2.20 i go see the teacher....wow...she give me back..soo the lucky seh...when home with murali and richard...until northpoint there... i go home alone..as murali wanted to accopany richard for fuazian to come....[did i speel his name correctly???]...dont think sooo...*girns*
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11:52 PM